One of my goals for this year was to work on quieting my mind. I find that there are constantly thoughts racing through my head and sometimes at night I spend more time thinking about a blog post I want to write than sleeping. The problem there is that I tend to have all these ideas, then I fall asleep and when it comes to trying to take them out of my mind I struggle. I have started writing down my thoughts using pen and paper and I have found this to be such a freeing experience… apart from my hand, which has not written this much in over twenty years.
I picked up a notebook, just lying around in my office, not being used. and started scribbling my thoughts on a page. and that led to me writing my thoughts about what I want to achieve in the year. Soon I was venting about my workday on these pages, and slowly I was just scribbling all kinds of thoughts down. It was a mash up on nearly everything and I feel like my brain feels so much more manageable. This is not an essay on how to journal or anything remotely like that, I just felt the need to write an appreciation of this new hobby in my life. Is this a hobby?
When setting goals for the year there were three things I wanted to do;
- Write more in my notebook
- Blog more
- Start writing essays
All these are related and all these goals interconnect. I was always setting a goal to blog more and never really got back into the habit, but I thought that now that I was scribbling some notes about my reading into a notebook, maybe I could turn that into posts, but it has been a few months since my last blog entry. In fact, besides the International Booker Prize long list, I think my last post was my 2026 intentions back in early January. I think that post covers a lot of the same themes as this one. However, I am trying to reinforce my thoughts. I have hit a barrier where I write into a notebook and then I felt like I was done with the progress. I think this is the same barrier I have in the past when it comes to rewriting. I have this problem where I will write something down and now it is out of my head, I feel like I am free from those thoughts and never return to them…until I write about the same thing again later in life. I have heard of authors who would write a draft and lock it away, then rewrite the same story much later from memory. Maybe that is what I need to do or maybe this is what I am doing now with covering the same topic again without looking at it previously.
One of the reasons I mentioned blogging and writing essays separately is because I was worried about just writing lists or reviews and ignoring the skill I want to develop. So, my goal was to write in my notebook (is it a journal?) a few times a week. Try to post weekly and then write an essay at least once a month. I have failed this goal, but I feel like I am making progress with myself. Maybe the goal is not to have a goal but to continue writing in any form. I do not even know if this is something I will post but taking it out of my head into my journal and. now, typing this feels like progress. Next, I want to try remembering the thoughts I wrote about some of the novels I have read recently and maybe turning them into actual reviews for my blog.
This is a learning experience for me, and I have found that the act of writing with pen and paper has been a great way to remember my thoughts and feelings. Not every idea or thought written turns into something more but it has been amazing to just disconnect from my phone, my computer and any screen and just try to process my mind. The notepad is not pretty, my handwriting is not neat, but there is a phrase I keep hearing when I explore journalling on YouTube; “messy pages, quiet mind”. The focus on finding mental clarity is the goal, it does not matter what the pages look like. Although going down journalling rabbit holes I must remind myself that these people are being performative in making this content and they are not showing the mess.
Sure, I would love a nicer notebook, but I find this free one has been useful. Who knows, maybe I will invest in something better, but I do not see myself investing in washi tapes, stamps and turning this into an art project. As a left-handed person, I probably cannot use a fountain pen, although I love the idea, maybe gel pens are safer. I also love the idea of carrying around a little traveller’s notebook wherever I go but I work from home, so I hardly leave the house.
While I never want to make this practice performative, I want to develop better journalling processes and find a style that works for me. At the moment, I put everything into the same book, but is that the best idea? I have no idea. I have seen too many videos where people hold up a pile of books and tell me about their journal eco system and that feels excessive. Then I think, do I want my thoughts on books and media in the same place as my rants about work. I am the only one that reads these pages, so I do not know if it matters. Maybe dividing them into sections would be useful. I do love the idea of a commonplace book. For those who do not know what a commonplace book is, it is like a living encyclopaedia of things you have learnt, quotes you like and maybe more. This appeals to me but in a sense, I treat my blog as a way to documents my thoughts, I do write reviews (not as much as I should), I keeps lists, maybe I need to add other information here. I would like to do more movies or TV shows, more brain dumps, more documenting of what I have learnt.
I am not sure if this was a blog post, an essay or a brain dump. I enjoyed writing this and I think I might even edit and post this. Not for any reason but to store it and who knows what will become of this. I do find it interesting that I started off writing and ended up realising that blogging and commonplace books might be the same things for me. I do feel the need to write some books reviews now; I want to share more thoughts on my reading challenge my wife made for my birthday. Will I write more about my journalling experiences? Probably, I am still trying to learn, and I find writing a useful tool for understanding my thoughts.

Wanted to do something different, and this is inspired by a note I found in my Notes app regarding my wife from 2014. I am not going to share this note as it is too personal but recently I saw a TikTok trend asking what type of notes do men have on their phone, so it sparked this post. I want to post a few I found and try to see if I can explain them. While looking I have deleted so many notes because I have no idea what they mean.
Ten years ago, I started this blog, as a was a way to work through my thoughts; the ten lessons I’ve learned from ten years of book blogging. So much has changed with the way I approach blogging and I wanted to share with you what I have learnt and my current mindset. Originally this blog was documenting my journey into philosophy, literature and culture. I had another blog called Literary Exploration that was my book blog, I was a new reader and used the blog to review every book I read. As a literary explorer I approached literature with the intention to find great books in all genres. However, the main motivation for having a book blog was trying to get ARCs (advance reader copies) and interact with the thriving book blogging community. That blog is now gone, and I have merged the two blogs here. While I mainly use this for my book blogging my approach to literature is different now, so I wanted to share my current attitude to blogging.
I think 488 words a day is a good way to start developing a writing habit again and try something new. My first novel idea was to write a hard-boiled detective novel with a female protagonist. I wanted to explore the pulp crime genre but I also wanted to explore the idea of how women are treated in a male dominated job and even go into sexual manipulation and abuse. I had a great plot lined up but it was not working on the page. I do not know if I have the ability to write plot heavy stories, I tend to rush through the story arc.

